Saturday, December 26, 2009

Merry Christmas

I know it's a little late but I've been pretty busy as of late.

I had spotting Wednesday into Thursday so they pulled me in to look and see if they could find anything. They found this

My little vegan floating all nice and comfy inside. The baby had a heart rate of 150 and measured 6weeks 6 days which was fantastic considering we didn't really have a due date. Now my due date is 8/12/2010

They could not find the source of the blood but they didn't seem to concerned. So Even though I'm still having spotting I'm trying not to be overly worried about my vegan. I still go again on Monday and if I'm still having spotting I'll talk to them about it. 

Monday, December 21, 2009

I still have a baby in there!

My betas came back stunning. I'm so pleased. I've also had no bleeding since Saturday and I even had a busy day today at work.

I'm so excited for next monday to see my littl elephant on an ultrasound. I can't wait.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

I don't know

I don't know where I stand right now. I don't know If I'm still pregnant or if I've lost this baby too.

Thursday I had a spotting episode with bright red blood. It disappear after an hour but it startled me enough to request more betas. So I had a draw on Friday and I'm supposed to go in again on Monday. This morning I woke up went to the bathroom and nothing was wrong. About two hours later there was a lot of bright red and then fifteen minutes later I passed a clot. That was it, I was convinced that I was losing this baby. Then all of a sudden it stopped. No Blood no nothing.

I'm so confused I don't know what's going on. I want to believe that it was just a fluke and I still have my baby but I don't know what to believe.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Its cold

Its cold in Pa like icy and slippery when driving.


I'm feeling pretty good still nausous and I'm breaking out like a 13 year old.

Yesterday I went with my parents and my little sisters on the Santa train in Strasburg Pa. It was so much fun. My sisters are 4 (almost 5) so Santa is a big deal right now. It was so much fun to see how excited they were about seeing Santa and riding on a real train. I'm so excited thinking next year I'll have a new little baby to celebrate Christmas with.

Tonight I sewed some pants and made brownies. YUM! I'm very excited about my sewing machine too, I think I did a decent job too.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

And it's 5:30

Really as I start writting this it's 5:30am. Why the hell am I up?

Uhg this is going to sound like an ungrateful rant but anyway.

Why does it seem my other pregnancy is going by so quick? I just got an email telling me I was 16 weeks. I would like to say that I love that baby and this one with all my heart, but I just wish I was 16 weeks. Right now I'd be planning how to tell my family for the big ultrasound not waiting (im)patiently for my first visit. I should be in maternity clothes with a cute bump not feeling that bloat has turned even my scrubs against me. Sure I'm thrilled to be pregnant and blessed that it happened so quick but I still miss my first baby.

On a less stupid note my being up early has be productive, I ordered my father's Christmas present. Yay

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

It snowed!

Technically this is our second real snow of the season but this was the better of the two. It snowed all night and became rain/sleet in the morning. I would have missed all the weather but Carl's work called him all in a panic this morning and he ended up going to work a little before 8, he normally works at 1. So before we left I made him sweep off the car so I could drive, I sure as hell wasn't doing it me and lil'El like the warmth. But if anyone has ever been to the coal region of Pa after the leaves have fallen but before the snow they know it's this ugly brown region. When it snows it's relatively pretty so while I like the fall I always look forward to the snow.

I'm beginning to wonder how my cat will take to a baby. See we have a 6 month old kitten named Lyric who we've had since she was 13 weeks old. She's very clingy to me and if I sit down she has to be in my lap, this has increased 10 fold since I found out I was pregnant. I think she knows. She's only had one interaction with smaller people, my 4 year old sister, and she was dive bombing her the entire time. I can't have her doing that to a newborn expecially since she'll be over a year and bigger than she is now. We might have to figure out how to prevent that in the future.

In other news we have new neighbors. I smell cigarette smoke in my hall but this is just the first day they have lived here. So the jury is still out.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

I get up too early

I get up way too early. I don't know why anymore. I used to be the type of person who could sleep in until 3 in the afternoon even if I went to bed at like 10. Now I can barely sleep past 8 anymore. I think it has to do with a job I had earlier this year that had me on such a weird schedual and I was always up early.

I'm very excited for Christmas to come. This year there are a million presents for my sisters but I still have to shop for my parents, oh yeah Carl too. Still this will be my first "Christmas in my own home." I'm sure I'll spend half of it at my parents house (and maybe an hour at Carl's parents) but it's still an exciting prospect.

Also the monday following Christmas will be my first appointment where I get to see my little El. I'm very excited for that day and for the first time since I got pregnant I'm actually believing I'll make it to that day. I know that's kind of an awful thing to say but I'm still nervous about the appointment.

Sunday, December 6, 2009


I am currently 5 weeks and 2 days pregnant. This was the time I started spotting in my last pregnancy and so today I've been trying to keep super busy. I did manage to avoid thinking of it too much by cleaning parts of my house and finally wrapping all the presents for my sisters.

My tree looks very good with all the presents under it. I'm in much of a Christmas-y mood seeing that. What's funny is the entire bottom of my tree if covered with gifts but all but two are for my sisters. So I still have to do some major shopping left, that is if my car doesn't cost enough to drain my Christmas money.

As for my current pregnancy I feel great. Okay so I puked up my dinner last night and I have wicked heartburn if I eat certain things, but I still feel great. I wasn't ever a meats girl but I did love certain meat. Well my little El has different ideas for me. I either get heartburn or vomit from eating meat and my mom jokes that I have a vegetarian baby growing. So if I go eight more months without eating meat I might cry.

In other news I've been looking at wedding dresses that will be forgiving to my immediate post baby body. My mom found one for me that I actually really love. Basically I'm looking at anything with an empire waist and straps, I hate strapless.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

A litte more about me

First off my name is Elizabeth, I go by Izzy and have since high school. I work at a daycare center and I absolutely adore my job of taking care of the children.

I am engaged to a wonderful man named Carl and we've been together since our junior year in high school. We will be married on September 18, 2010 come hell or high water.

We are both very excited at the prospect of becoming parents. We both were very excited when I got the positive pregnancy test on October 22. Sadly I started miscarrying on the following Sunday. We both really wanted another child so when barely a month later I got another positive pregnancy test were were happy. I'm still terrified of losing this baby but I'm trying to keep a positive outlook on life and pregnancy. I pray so hard for this child to be my forever baby.

The estimated due date so far for this baby is August 6, 2010. that is a little over a month before our wedding. Mind since I did not actually have a period between my miscarriage and this conception the due date could be pushed back closer to the wedding. I have visions of my baby being exactly a month old at my wedding.

If you're are wondering about the title of this blog there is a story behind it. At the day care I work at we have rooms named after things: dog room, cat room, apple room, etc. Well my most favorite room to work in is called the Elephant Room, its the 1 yr to 2 yr room and they're all such adorable little kids. Well I have decided in honor of my favorite room this little one will be nicknamed lil' El.


I'm so tired right now, not that I really mind but normally I was able to stay awake until 3am. I guess that's all changing.

Work was good today, I went back into the baby-baby room. It's so much fun to be with the infants even if they can sometimes be fussing all at one time. My theory is if you can care for 4 screaming infants at once you have a shot at being able to care for 1 baby.

I realized I have developed a new mantra. "Everyday I am pregnant is a blessing" and to me it really is.

Maybe in about 30 weeks I wont think so but right now I'm just happy being pregnant.

Take Two

This really is take two for me.

Take two of what? Well for the second time, in a rather short time, I'm pregnant.

The first time was a little unexpected but I still wanted that baby with all my heart. Sadly the pregnancy ended just as soon as it began. I was heart broken but knew that I wanted to try again and soon. Originally I thought I would waited a month and then try for another baby. But there were other plans in mind for me.

On Sunday November 30, 2009 I got my second positive pregnancy test a little over a month after my first. I knew that it was a new pregnancy since my hormones had dropped below a two during my miscarriage. Sure enough when I got my first hCG numbers back on Monday December 1st they were 33. That is a good number for early pregnancy but I still had to see if they were rising or not. Wednesday December 2nd I went in for my second round of betas, it is supposed to double in about a 42 hour window. I was at work so I had my mother harassing the doctor's office. At 3:20 I got this text "71 today!!!" I was so happy to see those numbers had doubled.

So right now I'm waiting anxiously for my first appointment on December 28 at 2:20. It seems like forever away but I'm really trying to just take one day at a time. Everyday I am pregnant is a blessing.